Saturday, 31 January 2009


... because it is truly bliss. OR IS IT?

"Jessica Alba is the one in Fantastic Four right? Oh, I don't like her face in that movie, she looks like Botox Woman" Gary Kang, 29 Jan 2009.


I've got a few things to update about.. but I feel like sleeping now. It's 10.50 pm. You know what, on a side note, I realised the time on Blogger is different. I still haven't figured out what region's time it follows, and I haven't figured out how to change it to the time zone I'm in. Oh well.

So anyway. Yes. House-hopping with the monkeys tomorrow, can't wait. =)

Every second I'm away from you reminds me of how much I miss your company.
The sight of you soothes me like you wouldn't believe.

Friday, 30 January 2009


... because how can you believe it unless you see it for yourself?

Hello! =)

I'm in the process of writing another story.. and I am currently stuck. It's quite long already, and I don't think I'm even half way there yet. I was writing another story before that, about ants. Yes, you read correctly, ants. It ends with fishes, though.

Haha. Okay I'm not making sense. Although it really does start with ants and end with fishes.. but .. well, you'll understand if I ever complete and publish it. =P

Oh, and all of them are emo stories, big surprise right, coming from me. *rolls eyes*

Bought loads of movies (actually just 6) just now, erm, courtesy of dad. Hehe thank you daddy. =)

So anyway. I've *finally* done the medical/radiology for the Australian visa thing, so looks like it's a done deal.

Going back to Melbourne soon, to University, and to plugging away at revision books and notes 24/7!!


Compliments may appear to be merely trifles or polite nothings, but coming from the right person ...

Tuesday, 27 January 2009


... because you can't help but expect SOMETHING in return.

Applying for visa = EXTREMELY troublesome.

Grrrr. And there's that health check to do, and everything.. THANK GOODNESS I'm not under 18 anymore, there are loads of other things to do if you're under 18 (sorry Carmen&Shen TOO BAD for you XP).

Okay, so maybe it's not THAT difficult.


Lazylazylazylazylazylazylazy. =(=(

I want to watch LOTR. Chuen Loongggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggg!! =)=)=)

I dare not stop hoping.

Monday, 26 January 2009


... because good things will always come to those who are patient.

Happy Chinese New Year everyone!!

I'm not getting up to much this CNY.. but anyway. I won something like RM 60 (or more) off my dad yesterday. Heee=)

I've got a couple of ideas for stories, but I haven't gotten round to writing them yet. I shall do it soon. In the meantime..

Happy CNY! ;)

If he cannot perceive her regard, he is a fool.

Saturday, 24 January 2009


... because what if, what if, WHAT IF?

Tagged by Carmen Teoh.

Take a photo of yourself NOW.
Tag 5 people.

1. No editing.
2. No fixing your hair.
3. No make-up.
4. No smiling.
5. No back shots.


I love sunlight. Sunlight makes my pictures look nice.
That picture of you.. it takes my breath away.

I tag:

Jasryn. Michele. Yee Hooi. Yun Shen. Ethel.

By the way, I got my hair cut.

I think I look weird.

I'm taking off, my dad wants to go out for a drive - I'm driving, naturally. *wink*


If you knew, would you have me stop?
If you only knew how much comfort your presence provides.

Friday, 23 January 2009


... because I NEED to know.

It's already the 23rd of January.

I'm going back to Melbourne in mid February.

And here I was, thinking that my holidays were going to last FOREVER.

Nooooooooooooo!!!!!!! What happened to all that TIME??

I *do* look forward to going back to Melbourne. But *shudder* think of all that hard work ahead, chasing for marks, cooking, cleaning.. ALL OVER AGAIN. And leaving behind... without knowing... again. Wasn't once bad enough?


Laziness is stirring within. *sigh*

Focus on the goal, eyes on the prize!

Gah who am I kidding. 20 odd days left to relax, enjoy life and be as lazy as I can.

There's no telling what the year has in store for me.

Constant vigilance!!

Hee. =)

It's now 8 am in the morning. I'm bored.

Someone to have and hold, someone to warm my heart and soul.

Thursday, 22 January 2009

The Most Magnificent Story Ever.

... because TanYunShen came up with it and forced asked me to put this as the title.

Here goes.

One day, ants tried to climb up Bella's leg. Edward Cullen got so pissed off at the ants, so he set them on FIRE!!!!!! Unfortunately (or fortunately, as you will see later in this epic story), he forgot that he set Bella on fire as well, so she was burned to cinders. Edward Cullen was very sad for a while.. but then he found Shen, his true love!! And they lived happily ever after.

Disclaimer (I don't think disclaimers are for these kind of things, Shen, but.. whatever floats your boat) :-
Anybody who tries to claim that Edward Cullen is your husband. TOO BAD. HE BELONGS TO SHEN. *evil vampire laugh*

*in a chirpy annoucer-type voice* This movie looks all set to become an absolute blockbuster hit! Full of thrillers (when ants climb up Bella's leg), action (when Edward Cullen tried to kill the ants) and romance (Shen and Edward Cullen live happily ever aftaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa), this is one heck of a movie you don't want to miss! What are you waiting for? Go grab your tickets now!!

Note from the editor:


Don't give me that look. Go look at --> Shen <--. =)

Many of us just won't give up our dreams about true love.

Tuesday, 20 January 2009


... by you.

"You're like my own personal brand of heroin". Edward Cullen, Twilight.

I said I'd try to abstain from emo posts on my blog - it's not working. So here goes.

I really did dream of him last night. I dreamt the same dream I had on this very day, 60 years back. I hadn't dreamt of him in a very long time.

I wince as I slowly push myself upright. My cane.. ah, yes, it is at its usual place, propped against my bedside table. I lean heavily on my cane as I make my way to the chair beside the window and sit down with a sigh. As I rest my head against the window pane, I close my eyes, eyes that have seen not only happiness and joy, but also pain and suffering. The sheer day curtain, rippling in the breeze, brushes lightly against my wrinkled face. I take a deep breath and exhale gently, as I allow myself to drift back into my dream...

"You missed!! Although the only way you could hit me was if you were aiming for something else..", he laughed.


"Ouch!! What was that for?? You didn't have to hit so hard, I was kidding!!"

"Okay, okay, put it down, I surrender! Your aim is pretty good".


I double over with laughter as he tries to hide his face. I grin wickedly, looking pointedly at the clump of snow I still have in my hand.

"Okay, okay!! I'm sorry I said your aim was bad! Stop it!! Please?"

I look down at the snow-covered floor, pretending to consider his plea. Out of the corner of my eyes, I see him getting ready to pounce on me. I count silently, "1, 2, 3 .. DIVE!", and I dive sideways, just in time. He's on the floor, but recovers quickly from the shock of missing his target. He grabs my legs as I try to squirm away. We're both laughing and laughing and laughing as I try to loosen his grip, and he tries to catch me.

Finally, exhausted, we flop down on the snow. We just lie beside each other, not saying a word, comfortable with the silence around us.

"Hey, do you believe in true love?" he suddenly asks.

I turn my head slightly, just enough so that I can see his face. I can tell, just with a glance, that he's not asking it in a joking kind of way. His eyes are closed, and he has his serious look on. He really does want to know what I think. And as I look at him, his eyes flutter open, he looks at me and smiles. My mind answers his question silently, "How could I not?".

I frown a little, to show him that I'm taking his question seriously. My heart races, my pulse quickens. To be able to be so near him, but to not be able to say what I want to say..

The corners of my lips turn up a little, and I look into his eyes and give him my answer, "Yes, I do. I believe in love lasting forever. At least.. I hope it's true, and I want it to be true. So I have to believe that it's true, you know? I know it's really hard to find a person who feels for you just as strongly as you feel for him. But the one thing that really scares me is knowing that everything has to be just right, like, not only the way you feel for each other, but the time as well. Imagine, having to be with the right person, at the right place, at the right time. So many factors involved, so many things to get right. I guess all we can do is hope that we find our true love one day, because to give up that hope, well, it just makes me feel more alone and vulnerable".

He's quiet for a few minutes. I can tell that he's thinking about what I said.

I prod him gently and ask, "What are you thinking about?"

He shakes himself a little, as if he's just come out of a reverie. He gives me a sidelong glance and answers, "I was just thinking that I've never felt right with any of the girls I've dated. You're my best friend, you know as well as I do that they're great girls and all.. but I just couldn't share my life with them. The more they tried to close the gap, the more I'd struggle to pull away".

Silence. "That doesn't make for a very good relationship, you know, with one person always trying to pull away", he said, with a wry smile.

"Hmm", I say, as I mull over his thoughts. "Do you think you're afraid of committing yourself? You try not to give too much of yourself away, because you're not ready to?"

"You know, maybe you're right. I guess I'm not really ready for a committed relationship. It's just that.. I've never met a girl that's made me go *I'm going to marry her*. You know what I mean?"

Ouch. "Oh. Yeah, that makes sense". No! No, no, no!! It doesn't make sense!

He's on a roll. "Yeah, I mean, I can't just say that I'm going to love you forever, when I'm not even sure that I'm going to keep that promise. But then, how can I be sure? Maybe I'm going to stay single forever. That is so depressing".

"Aww, don't give up yet. You'll find your soulmate eventually, I'm sure you will", I say as I pat him reassuringly on his hand.

My touch lingers for just a little moment longer than necessary. His eyes are closed again. As my eyes move from his face to the spot on his hand that my fingers just left, I bite back a sigh of anger, bitterness, sadness, frustration and resignation. So this is what it's going to be like. Him not realising, and me not telling him. Would I sacrifice my feelings for him to avoid the risk of rejection? Yes, I would. Because I would rather have him as a friend than not at all, I tell myself. I feel hot tears welling up in my eyes. I look away, away from the person I love so much, and I shut my eyes tightly.

The breeze caresses my face. I am sitting on my chair beside the window. The memory of my twenty-year-old self fades. I look sadly at the photo on the table, beside my empty bed. Before the memories threaten to overwhelm me once more, I clamp my eyes tightly shut once again.

If only I could shut him out of my heart as tightly as I can shut him out of my sight.


You were my inspiration.
Hold me now, touch me now.
Love is an irresistible desire to be irresistibly desired.

Monday, 19 January 2009


... because no one else wants to listen.


Superrrrrrrrrrrrrr irritating can.

Just because I have a "P" sticker on my car right.


Grrrrrrr. Seriously. When I signal and want to go into the lane, the people speed up and go bumper to bumper with the car in front, so I can't get past.

Like that okay, nevermind. I slowly wait for some kind person to let me through. THEN AFTER THAT RIGHT. People signal and want to go in, so I leave a bit of space for the one car that's insistently sticking it's head in front of my car. THEN RIGHT. Three or four cars just accelerate and push me out of the lane.


This was outside the Sri KL area. Grrrrrrrr. I don't know how all you Taylors people navigate your way to and from there everyday man.. Kudos to you all wey. Seriously. Lol.

AND RIGHT. OMG. I just moved to the right lane at one point (not at Sri KL anymore), because I was turning to the right, then suddenly this car SHOT UP on the lane on the furthest right. He didn't realise that the road there ENDED (merged with the lane I was in). By that time I was on the correct lane already, and he was actually following behind.. he was try to cut in in front of me. Then he had to break suddenly. Serves him right. BUT THEN he had the audacity to HONK at me! Like it was my fault like that! Not like I was driving very slowly also. I was totally going at what, 70? Because I accelerated to merge into the right lane. And there was a car in front of me, AS WELL AS a traffic light. Stupid fella. Grrrrrrrrrrr.




You saved me in every way a person can be saved.

Sunday, 18 January 2009


... because I'm believing in something that I shouldn't believe in.

I need something to do. Grrr.

Seriously man, I have nothing to blog about. Well, I do, but it'll be horrifically emo, so I shall abstain from that for a while. Hehe.

I want to upload pictures, but Blogger is SERIOUSLY irritating. I only can upload once (5 pictures at a time), and then after that it stubbornly refuses to work. Like, the page won't load. The draft won't save. Irritating much? Bah.

Oh, I've been driving quite a bit. =) Driving my brother to tuition, driving mum to the market, driving to the airport to fetch my dad.. you get the gist. I'm only allowed to drive with the 'rents in the car, though! I'm not complaining, I don't think I'd dare to drive by myself. Heheh. Not yet, anyway.

Hmm, I'm hungry. I wonder what's for dinner..


Quote Michael Soyza - "I'm done with emotions".

… but it seems that emotions aren’t done with me yet. *sigh*

There can only be two reasons you’re not telling me.. 

1. You don’t want to take the risk. 

2. You don’t want to hurt my feelings.

Somehow.. I can’t help but think it’s the latter.

That moment when we touched..

Saturday, 17 January 2009


... because when things go wrong..

I love my computer. I love the internet (most of the time).

I love being able to download books off the net. Sure, it's a bit of a strain reading ebooks, but what the heck, it's free! And it beats having to go to the bookshop and finding the book not there.

Oh, I've been driving quite a bit! Only with my parents (or either one of them) around in the car, though. Better than nothing, right? I think I've given my mum more than a few panic moments.. heheh.

Apart from that, I also can't drive alone, because I don't know what roads to use. And I am not kidding when I say that I don't know the way back to my house. Yeah, go on, laugh. =(

I can't believe we're already a bit more than halfway through with January 2009. Just one more month (give or take a few days), and I'll be back in Melbourne, studying, and studying, and studying. *sigh*

I wonder what University is going to be like. I wonder how this year will go. I wonder..

Oh come on, guys. Even I am NOT that emo. Seriously. Lol.
I feel the pain of everyone.. and then I feel nothing.

Thursday, 15 January 2009

Happy Birthday Terence!





Erm, I mean..

The most informed


My dear friend.

Happy 19th.

All the best, dude. =)

Will you make up your mind already?

Wednesday, 14 January 2009


... because all I need to know is the truth.

I drove today. Ahah. =)

I have nothing to say.

I hope Carmen doesn't drag me all over the shopping mall tomorrow ... I mean later today.

Oh oh oh and I'm talking to Michele now. 1 hour plus already. Haha. Good to talk to her after so long. Love ya dear! =)=)


Okay, so maybe I ended up talking to her for 4 hours. ZOMG. Haha.

Michele: Ehhhhhh.. we talk for 4 hours already! Zomg.

Caitlin: I know, exactly right!! And we're not even together!!

Michele: Ewwwwwwwwwwww, that's disturbing!

Caitlin: What what whaaaaaaaaaaaat? Where gottttt.. I'm just saying.

You're right man, you're all right. I'm sooooooo emo. But whatever - the emo stuff comes more naturally.

I'll do the happy-fied last line thing ...... some other time. =P

Your hold over me is far greater than you or anyone else can imagine.

Monday, 12 January 2009

Tagged by Michele.

1. Take a picture of yourself right now.
2. Don't change your clothes, don't fix your hair. Just take a picture.
3. Post the photo with NO EDITING.
4. Post these instructions with your photo.
5. Tag 5 people.

I'm only doing this because it involves taking a photo of myself. Heee. =)

I tag:

Li May.
Su Ping.
Li Ying.

Nobody likes to be forgotten.
Oh, I'm sorry, did you say something?

Sunday, 11 January 2009

Happy Birthday Wei Khai!

To my dear friend,

And my EMO not-that-emo partner,

Ang Wei Khai,


P.S - I find this conversation very amusing, until now.

*talking about, of all things - gaining weight*

"Hm, nvm, now you're smarter since you study a lot nowadays.. got gain got loss mar. Hahaha. =)"

"Grrrrrrrrrr OMG WEI KHAI !!!!"

"Haha my surname's Ang."

*no comment*

Hope you have an awesome birthday. =)

So what is this?
It's been a while..

Saturday, 10 January 2009



Okay, you guys might have noticed the advertisements and stuff above.


I think they're an eyesore, urgh.

But whatever, if it generates money, I'm not complaining. =)

Unfortunately, the thing is, it only generates money when people CLICK on the advertisement links. And even more unfortunately, most people barely notice the advertisements as it is, what more click them. I'm of the same mould, all I do is ignore them. Oh well. In the long run, I suppose..

So anyway, yeah, I'm really tempted to take them down, especially the one below the picture collage thing.

Unrelated: Did y'all notice, I edited the collage - with a few updated pictures. =)

Right, back to the adverts. I'll give it a few months, see how it goes. ;)

Back to square one again, but this time, I won't be fooled- or at least, I'll try not to be.

Friday, 9 January 2009


... because that is what utter contentment is all about.


Raindrops fall lightly on the window panes.

You sit back in a comfortable chair,

hugging a soft pillow,

reading a story book,

and eating chocolates.

That, my friends, is the true meaning of bliss.
*contented sigh*

By the way, I took the picture above myself.

Really, really.

I did. Really and truly. I put the flower (it's from the garden outside the house) on the piano top and took the picture.

Aww, shucks, don't believe me?

Spot the flower!

Yours truly,

Caitlin K.

The thought of you doesn't excite me as much as it used to.
On the path to recovery..

Tagged by Tiffany Teoh.

1. Does it matter to you if your boyfriend or girlfriend smokes?
Yes. MOST DEFINITELY no smoking, yo.

2. How about drinking?
In moderation is definitely okay. But not like a I-need-alcohol-to-survive kind of way.

3. Do you like someone that you can't have?

4. If someone liked you right now, would you want them to tell you?
It kind of depends on the person. I really hate saying no.

5. What's your favourite sport?
Figure skating. Athletics (long distance running). I enjoy most sports. =)

6. It's Saturday night, and you're home alone... what do you do?
The usual. Watch TV (although I haven't really touched the TV in a long time), or go online, or read a story book. And all this doesn't only happen on a Saturday night. =.=

7. Do you like roller coasters?
Love them. =)

8. When's the perfect time to have a bf/gf?
When I'm ready. As of yet.. I have no idea when that will be. When the right guy comes along, maybe?

9. If you could date any celebrity, who would it be?
None of them.

10. What are you doing this weekend?
Lunch at Lemon Garden on Saturday! =P Nothing much else besides.

11. What is your favourite restaurant?
No restaurant in particular. I kind of prefer home-cooked food anyway. =)

12. Have you ever hugged someone?
Sure, many times. In a friend kind of way, of course.

13. Ever kissed someone you weren't attracted to?

14. Do you like anyone right now?
I don't. .. or at least, not right at this moment.

15. What is the first thing you notice about the opposite sex?
The smile, I think. Or maybe the overall appearance.

16. Which do you prefer, Beach or Mountains?
Beach in the evening, with the sunset. Mountains in the morning. Don't ask me why, I don't know either. XD

17. What kind of phone do you have?

18. Computer or Laptop?

19. Jeans or sweats?
Jeans definitely wins hands down.

20. Which year(s) has/have been the best so far?
2008. Learnt to be independent, yo. =)

21. How old are you gonna be on your next birthday?
19 years old - the last of the "teen" years. Although I just turned 18 like.. 12 days ago. =.=

22. What should you be doing right now?
Showering. Heh.

23. What is your favourite TV show?
None in particular. And I haven't been anywhere near the TV lately. Hmm.

24. What's been your last purchase?
Er, stuff from the supermarket (Giant at Pyramid). Haha, sad, right?

25. Are you attracted to girls/boys that smoke?
No way. It's a definite turn off.

26. Have you ever fallen on your butt in front of a crowd of people?
Hell yeah. Imagine - During a competition, a few hundred people watching, you're alone on the ice rink, wearing a pretty dress, doing your program to the music... and WHAM! You're on your butt. Not once, but three times. Within the time frame of what, 2 minutes and 15 seconds? Sighhhhhh. Not pretty at all, I tell you. Especially since like when you land a jump, everyone claps and whistles, but when you fall, everybody goes "awwww" or some other "oh, you poor thing" kind of sound. Okay, that was probably the worst of my programs, but whatever man. My excuse is: even the figure skaters in the Winter Olympics aren't perfect, right? XD

27. What do you do when you're at home?
Computer, sleep, eat, read, more computer, more sleep, EAT!
I have *cough* an interesting life, yo.

28. What is your favourite subject?

29. What's the best thing that's ever happened to you?
Er firstly.. the question was weirdly structured (What's the best thing that's happened on you? - what does that even mean??) so I changed it a little (WEM, it makes more sense to me now).

I think so far, the best thing ever is going to Australia last year and finding myself. AND AND AND of course, not forgetting, having so many wonderful wonderful friends. =)=)

30. Tag 10 people:

Carmen Teoh. Because you SO need to update. I am bored.
Yee Hooi. Because your blog is dead.
Yun Shen. Because your blog is also sort of dead, but not as dead as Yee Hooi's.
Jasryn. Because.. you're my cousin? =P
Michele. Because I haven't tagged you before.
Adrian. Or any of the other 4 (Yew Hoong, Wei Khai, Jit Jiang, Yee Hui). Because your blog is dead too, even though you have like, 5 people contributing to it. Lol.

Cool, that's ten people. I'm done, yo. XP

One day, I'll find you. I give you my word on this.

Thursday, 8 January 2009


... because after so long, it matters so much that it's all-consuming.

It's 8 pm now.

I feel like going to sleep GAH.

Shuddup. I know it's early. I woke up at 5.45 am this morning okayyyyyyy. =(

Went skating, heeeeee. =)

But I lost the stupid jumping feel. Grrrrrrrrrrr.

But then again.. my leg muscles haven't hurt like this (since yesterday's skating) in a loooooooooong time. So I blame it on that. =P I still remember the walking-like-a-penguin times, and the half-waddle-half-hop thing. To think it was only a bit more than a year ago, all the way up to.. what's it, now? 6 years ago? *reminiscence* Good times, good times.

I am crapping. My thoughts have been lacking any coherent patterns lately.

Tiredddddddddddddddddddddd. =(
.. in more ways than one. *sigh*

There can be no healing without some kind of pain.


... because all there is, is silence everywhere.

That's it, isn't it? It's NOTHING. It was never meant to be anything. Yeah, I'm bitter. Yeah, I'm angry. But most of all ... I'm just sad.

Skating today. =)

I wouldn't have mentioned it, except..


Heee. =)

Somehow I lost it within a few times of skating back here in Malaysia (since coming back from Melbourne), but now I HAVE GOT IT BACK.

Ahah. Yay me! =)=)

Skating again tomorrow. ;)

I'm fine, but I'm not okay.

Tuesday, 6 January 2009


... because some things deserve to be forgotten, others don't.

This endless spiral of thoughts.
What am I to you?
Because you mean the world to me.

On another note, lookie at what I did to my nails!!

Hee, I did it myself! Without any of the sticker things or whatever. Just with two bottles of nail polish (white and transparent). Hee=) *bangga*

You're my number 1.


... because it's time to have more faith.

Just believe ....

I PASSED my driving test, by the way. =)

Please don't disappoint me, I've put all my hopes on you.
The greatest gift of all is to have you by my side.

Sunday, 4 January 2009


... because events deserve to be recognised.

Ooooooooooh driving test tomorrow heeee. =)

Wish me luck!

I'm going to need it.

Gaaaaaah. First I'm going to have to wake up early. Challenge, yo!


Stupid Red Alert isn't working. Grrrrrr. It keeps hanging. And not opening.


Okay I need to sleep early.

Driving test driving test driving test driving test!!

P.S - Facebook is being irritating and is not uploading all the pictures I have.. will add more of them once I make it work. =)

Your words intoxicating.


... because anything can happen when you dream.

The tombs of the Lovers of Teruel.
Look carefully... This picture speaks volumes.

The story of the Lovers of Teruel..

In the city there were two important and wealthy families, Marcilla and Segura. Juan Martinez (also known as Diego) was a Marcilla and Isabel a Segura. The two were in love as childhood playmates but when they were both at an eligible age to wed, Diego's family had fallen on hard times. Isabel's father, being the most wealthy in all of Teruel, forbade the marriage. Diego, however, was able to make an agreement with the father in which he would leave Teruel for five years to try to build his fortune. If Diego was able to gain wealth within those five years he would be able to marry his love, Isabel.

During those five years her father pestered her to marry someone. She replied to him by saying that God wished her to remain a virgin until she turned twenty, saying that women should learn how to manage the household before getting married. Because her father loved her dearly and wished for her happiness, he agreed and for five years, they waited for Diego's return.

Diego was not heard from in those five years and so on the day of the five years' close Isabel's father married her to Don Pedro de Azagra from Albarracin. Right after the wedding ceremony there was a commotion at the Zaragoza gate. The watchmen informed the village that Diego Marcilla had returned with great riches and with the intent of marrying Isabel. Diego had not counted the day in which he petitioned Isabel's father whereas the Seguras had.

That night, Diego sneaked into the bedroom of Isabel and her husband and gently awoke her. He pleaded to her, "Besame, que me muero," (Kiss me for I am dying) and she refused, saying "No quiera Dios que yo falte a mi marido," (God does not wish me to deceive my husband) "Por la pasion de Jesucristo os suplico que busques a otra, que de mi no hagais cuenta. Pues si a Dios no ha complacido, tampoco me complace a mi." (For the love of Jesus Christ I beg you to find another, and to stop caring about me. If you can't please God, then it won't please me either.)

He begged one last time, saying that he was dying and wished for a final kiss. But still she refused. Upon hearing this Diego could not bear the separation between himself and his love, and with a sigh he died on the feet of his beloved Isabel. When she realized that he died, she shivered. She woke her husband, telling him that his snoring scared her and she wished to hear a story. And he did, and in return she told him her own story. She told him of Diego and how he lay dead beside the bed.

"Oh, you wretched! Why did you not kiss him?"

"To not deceive my husband." She replied.

"Of course," he groaned. "You are a woman to praise."

They agreed on secretly burying him in the local church because the husband feared that he would be blamed for his death. The next day, during the funeral for Diego Marcilla, Isabel showed up dressed in her wedding dress. She proceeded to walk to the front of the church and place a kiss on the man whom she had refused but in doing so Isabel died, falling prostrate on the body of the man whom she loved.

In death, not even able to touch the one he loves. So close, and yet ... still so far.

Now there's a sad story.

In my dreams, you love me, just like I love you.
I love you too much to ever stop liking you, so don't expect me to just be your friend.

Saturday, 3 January 2009

Tagged by Tan Shereen.

What's your favourite colour ?

Black, White and Pink.

How often do you think of committing suicide ?
Yeah, like, always. Because my life's so miserable and everything.


Do you have enough confidence ?
Pretty much, but hey, what's "enough"? =P

How many babies do you want ?
How about I decide when the time comes to decide? Heh. Another way of saying "I'm not sure yet".

Do you believe in seeing a rainbow after a rain ?
Literally, erm, nope. Figuratively.... yes. Although sometimes the rain might seem to be a thunderstorm..

Who is the one who cheers you up and supports you ?
Ditto what Shereen said: My family and friends.

Do you believe in eternal love ?
I'd like to believe it. Anyone care to prove it? =)

Do you think the person who tagged you, likes to play kidnapping ?
I'm sure she'd kidnap Rain if she could. =)

What are you really afraid of ?
Being ALONE. O.o

What is your bad habit ?
Talking too loudly. =( Working on it, really. Blahhh.

Do you have a secret crush ?

Do you cherish every single friendship of yours ?
'course. Haven't I said that the friends I have are the awesome-st of the awesome? =)

What does flying means to you ?
Being freeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee. And I'm not talking about aeroplanes here.

What do you currently crave ?
Sleep. And him.

Are you single or in a relationship ?

Describe the person who tagged you in 7 words.
Madly in love with Jung Ji Hoon.

What have you done to make yourself happy ?
Quite a number of things.. but then come to think of it, it was still quite emo-fying.

What is the worse case scenario that has happened to you in your life ?
Ask me that again when I'm 90. As of yet.. even the worst case moments have been like constructive criticism, therefore led to the building of strength of character. In conclusion, they were necessary life experiences, and not "worse case scenarios".

Who's the worst person in your life ?
Ever heard the phrase "I'm my worst enemy"?

If only you knew how much your presence means to me..

Happy Birthday Jia Ming!

Dear Cheah Jia Ming..


You're getting OLD, yo. You know, people say that you grow wiser as you grow older... so let's just hope that your brain starts catching up soon, yes?


Kidding, kidding. =)=)

Anyway, all the best, yo! You rock! ;)

Because friends will always be there for you..

Friday, 2 January 2009


... because they're the AWESOME of the AWESOME-ST.

(in no particular order) :-

Kimberly Wan
Nicole Hew
Carmen Teoh
Ian Beh
Bryan Voo
Ivan Raymond Yudistira
Shereen Liew
Tee Yee Hooi
Ruth Cheng
Cheng Chun
Yeo Mon Wei
Michael Soyza
Cheah Jia Ming
Terence Chong
Koay Leping
Tan Chor Yeng
Michelle Ng
Moo Hou Chuen
Yeo Chuen Loong
Loius Nga
Ng Yinn Jye
Jeremy Ooi
Ooi Wyn Yau
Tee Jvn Yi
Khar Mun
Lian Eu Chern
Kee Jit Jiang
Yong Chen Han
Mah Jun-Yeu
Lee Yen Hsian
Ang Wei Khai
Chin Jia Yi
Yap Jo Yee
Seet Yuen Hon
Timothy Cheng
Jeffrey Siow
Adrian Yei
Cheong Tee Jin
Tam Jee Ian
Adrian Hew
Dwayne Chan
Wong Shi Yi
Wong Yu Zhi
Douglas Teo
Cheryl Kwek
Lim Zhong Yong
Victor Lee
Rieko Ueski
Billy Low
Jared Ng
Nicholas Lam
Ethel Chan
Kellyn Goh
David Leong
Chua Xiao Von
Chew Perng Yann
Siew Suet Sim
Jonathan Seet
Mah Jia Mien
Tan Wei Ling
Jun Pei
Amanda Demetria
Chris Chieng
Siew Soon Waei
Hong Kah Kiat
Loong Theng Fei
Ng Sook Mun
Tan Zhe Wei
Tan Da Wei
Lim Kee Jinn
Nicole Kuan
Lim Li Ying
Wong Jyh Ling
Darren Goon
Siew Leng
Joanna Wong
Suryo Wonowijyoyo
Livia Tee
Chan Khai Ling
Michele Lim
Stephanie Ng
Lok Li Yi
Siobhan Toohey
Tay Yi Ping
Jenny Lui
Natalie Yap
Liam Mcauliffe
Trixie Yap
Joanna Abraham
Pik Kei
Corey Chan
Devkaran Doowa
Tania Putri
Yeo Khee Xiong
Chan Chun Wai
Low Wen Zhen
Jasryn Ng
Steve Tan
Ho Kah Hoe
Nicholas Ng
Randy Kuan
Katty Tseng
Ngan Kok Sian
Alastair Kwan
Jie Hau
Jana Loh
Lim Ter Yi
Leong Yik Mun
Khor Hsu Ann

Gee, I really hope I didn't miss anyone out..

Anyway, THANK YOU ALL SO MUCH for the birthday wishes and everything. =)

I know this is a bit late... but yeah, thank you so much, everyone. *big squishy hug*

Thank you especially to Terence, Jia Ming, Yee Hooi, Shereen, Carmen, Yun Shen, Michael, Cheng Chun, Leping, Tee Jin, Chor Yeng, Ruth and Michelle for going through all the trouble and organising the surpriseS for me. Capital "S" very much intended. Thank you, thank you, thank you!! =)

I can't help but feel so loved. =)