Thursday, 29 May 2008

Tagged by Yee Jeat.

#1 If your lover betrayed you, what will your reaction be?
I'd like to say that I'd probably scream at him then leave him. But I don't know what I'll actually do. What I did the last time was forgive him. Three times, I think. I lost count. But yes. Point is: I don't know.

#2 If you can have a dream to come true, what would it be?
Haha.. I want to be an _ _ _ _ _ _ _. Guess. =)

#3 What will your dream wedding be like?
Beach/garden/hilltop wedding. With all the romantic stuff and the "awwww" factor. =)

#4 Are you confused as to what lies ahead of you?
No. I know what I want. All I have to do is work out how to get there.

#5 What's your ideal lover like?
Heh. Do you REALLY want me to list it all out? *grin*

#6 Which is more blessed, loving someone or being loved by someone?
Neither. Being loved by the person you love is the best blessing ever.

#7 How long do you intend to wait for someone you really love?
If I love him? A longggggg time. =)

#8 If the person you secretly like is already attached, what would you do?
I'd be happy for him, if he's happy.

#9 Is there anything that has made you unhappy these days?
No. I'm a happy, happy person, yo. *wink*

#11 Is being tagged fun?
Heheh. Okay-lah. =)

#12 How do you see yourself in ten years time?
In ten years time I'll be 28. OMG. Hmmm. Happily married, I hope. Successful career, hopefully still fit and thin!! =P

#13 Who are currently the most important people to you?
Myself. Family. Friends.

#14 What kind of person do you think the person who tagged you is?
Yee Jeat? She's a wonderfully nice & pretty girl, PLUS she's an excellent runner. =)

#15 Would you rather be single & rich or married but poor?
Depends. =)

#16 What's the first thing you do every morning?
Drag myself out of bed. Make my bed. Drink water. Go into the bathroom.

#17 Would you give all in a relationship?

#18 If you fall in love with two people simultaneously, who would you pick?
I won't.

#19 What type of friends do you like?
The types of friends I have now.

#20 What type of friends do you dislike?
The types of people who aren't my friends now.

Tagged by : Pang Yee Jeat

Tag 8 peoples for this : Carmen. Yee Hooi. Michelle. Shereen Liew. Yun Shen. Mon Wei. Yi Ping. Cheng Chun.

Remove 1 question from below,and add in your personal question,make it a total of 20 questions,then tag 8 people in your list, list them out at the end of this post.Notify them in their chat box that he/she has been tagged.

1. At what age do you wish to marry?
After 24, before 30.

2. Where will you go if someone sponsors you a tour ticket?
Maldives! Or maybe Switzerland. Or ... well, places with nice romantic beaches and nice scenery. =)

3. What's your favorite thing to do?
Be me!!

4. Do you think money can buy happiness?

5. If you can have 1 dream to come true, what would it be?
Erm, ditto the tag above. =)

6. Do you believe you can survive without money?
Yes, if I can grow my own food and basically sustain a simple lifestyle.

7. What are you afraid to lose the most?
I don't know.

8. If you win $1 million, what would you do?
Save it.

9. How would you describe the person you like *at the moment*?
*At the moment*? Huh?

10. List out 3 good points of the person who tagged you?
Friendly. Pretty. Athletic.

11. What are the requirements that you wish from the other half?
As written in tag before this, do you REALLY want me to list it all out? =)

12. If you could rewind time would you?
No. The experiences I've gone through made me who I am now, and I'm happy with the person I am now.

13. What's your ambition?
To be an _ _ _ _ _ _ _. Guess. ;)

14. If you can teleport once, where would you go?
Outer space!! Seriously. I think it's cool. Haha.. but wait, if I only can teleport once, does that mean I can't come back??

15. What do you think is the most important thing in your life?

16. If you could undo doing one mistake in the past, what would it be?
Heh. Just that one thing.

17. If you have a chance, which part of your character would you like to change?
I like the way I am now, thank you very much. =)

18. What music have you been listening to recently?
The only kind of music I ever listen to is like, "emo" music.

19. What is the one thing you cannot do but you wish you could?
Fly. Seriously. It's cool.

20. What are your feelings right now?

I tag: Carmen. Shereen Tan. Ethel. Jyh Ling. Li May. Raihanis. Taty.

Hardcore... it's just not right.


Fuish man !!

History of Ideas essay ...............

DONE !!!!!!!!!!!

After finishing it 3 weeks ago and rewriting it about 4 times within the last week or so..

It felt absolutely amazing to print it out FOR REAL and staple it together and sign the cover sheet!!!

On the other hand.. After handing in HOI essay tomorrow, we'll get a new essay to do. Literature, this time. *sigh*

OH WELL. One down, just a few thousand more to go. Exaggerated, but you get my point. =)

I'm happy!!


Now I have to sleep late.


Step it up, or risk losing it all.

Tuesday, 27 May 2008


I need more sleep.

I need more exercise.

I need more time.

Taking four electives? Not the best idea I've had in a while. But I WILL SURVIVE. =)

Three essays due soon, one more to come, English for Academic Purposes oral presentation on Thursday, plus drama exam next week.


I'm stuck with my history of ideas essay. I thought I finished it like, three weeks ago. Which I did. But I just deleted about half of my essay, because it's not good enough. And now I'm stuck. I've no idea what to write. Help? *whimpers*

I need to sleep early.

This is not good. Like, REALLY not good.


But I can do it, right? Right. I can. And I will.

I made a decision today. The question is: was it the right one?

Monday, 26 May 2008

Happy Birthday Jia Yi!

Yes, that's ice cream. Gelato, more specifically. We couldn't get a cake- Jia Yi is lactose intolerant.

With the birthday girl.

Me. Peggy. Joanna. Veronica. Vincent. Yeon. Sadikin. Tze En. Chun. Billy. Jia Yi.

I think she was surprised. *high five, Billy!!*

She was also a bit embarrassed. She insisted on paying for our dinner. Thank you Jia Yi!!

It was a fun night. =)

Quote Zhi En - "No sh*t man!!"


Classic .... timeless.

Saturday, 24 May 2008


College life is fun.

No, wait.

College life in a different country, when you're on your own and have to be responsible for your own life is fun.

Not in the "I-can-do-anything-I-want-and-get-away-with-it-because-my-parents-
kind of way, but more like..

It's hard to explain.

I was just talking to my mum just now. And this realisation has been a long time coming.

It's not that last time (in Secondary school) I didn't have time to study because I had too many tuition classes, too many piano classes, too many skating classes.. It wasn't that at all. I DID have time to study. I just never bothered trying to. I DID have time to practice piano, I DID have time to do revision. I just didn't want to. I DID have time to help out around the house, to help with the dishes or with folding the clothes. I was just too lazy to.

Ironically, in Malaysia, my mum would always nag me to do all that, study, revise, practice piano, wake up early, skate, help out around the house.. and all I did was argue back and find reasons to NOT do all those things.

And here, in Australia, when I can get away with all that.. I'm not. I didn't have to take an extra elective just because mum said to. But I did. I didn't have to join the student committee because mum wanted me to. But I did. I don't have to go for extra chemistry class every Saturday because mum makes me go. But I do. I don't have to go for the Oaktree Foundation meeting every Wednesday after class. But I will. I don't have to study at all, after 9.00 - 5.15 p.m. classes everyday, because mum's not here to tell me to. But I do. I don't have to finish up my assignments early since mum's not here to nag at me. But I do.

It's not much. But heck, it's an improvement. Considering my attitude in secondary school... *shudder*

Could I actually be growing up?

Did I actually have to be in a different country from my parents to figure all that out?

That I don't actually have a bad memory, it's just that I never bothered trying to memorise. That I'm not actually stupid, it's just that I never bothered trying to study. That it's not that I don't have time to help around the house, it's just I never wanted to. That it's not that it's in my nature to be irresponsible, it's just that I never tried to be responsible. That it's not other people's fault if I fail, it's just that I was in denial.

It's amazing, really. Feeling this way. That I can actually do things, because they're in my control. That I am responsible for my own life. That what I do now will affect my future.

I've changed. I've definitely changed. It doesn't seem to be me, yet it's me. Amazing. *shakes head*

It's the decisions we make now that will affect the next 40-50 years of our life.

Thursday, 22 May 2008

*deep breath*



I'm calm. Very, very calm.

Pictures taken during Global Night Shift (end child slavery!!) :-

Dan, the 18 year old CEO of the Oaktree Foundation. Cool, right? Background information: The Oaktree Foundation is a social aid and development organisation entirely run by young people under the age of 26.

Jim, Maddie and Jess (I think). Three of the Ambassadors/Generators who spoke of their journeys as ambassadors/generators.

Trinity College can end child slavery!! =)

The group.

Sally. Fiona. Me. Genny. Our wonderful, wonderful team leaders.

The group of Environment and Development students doing the End Child Slavery campaign.

The crowd (at the concert).

Tuesday, 20 May 2008


Whatever Carmen says, I STILL think it's difficult to get the stupid Facebook to work. Took me so long to figure out how to get it started okay!! Then there were so many buttons to press.. It absolutely confuses me. Grrrr.. I only started one because EVERYBODY is on Facebook, INCLUDING the End Child Slavery campaign thing. Bah.

And it doesn't help that I'm SO EFFING PISSED OFF at a certain *someone*. So irritating, I tell you.

*deep breath*

Okay. I'm calm.

Oh yes, I'm not happy. I'm really NOT HAPPY.

Ask me why I'm not happy.

Okay, I'll tell anyway.


And when I can't find my black ink pen, I can't make notes. And when I can't make notes, I can't study Psychology. And when I can't study Psychology when I can't find my black pen, chances are there won't be many other times I CAN study Psychology. Therefore I will end up getting not so good marks, which is, obviously, NOT GOOD.



And NO, I can't do notes with a BLUE ink pen, that's just wrong, wrong, WRONG. I can't do notes with a black NON-INK pen, because that's WRONG as well.

Yes, I'm being irrational. So sue me. In other words, "I like or you like?? If you don't like, TOO BAD, I like."

I spent 45 minutes searching for my black ink pen today.

I didn't find it.

I had a few teaspoons of Nutella. What? I was grieving for my lost pen.

Shuddup. I am very attached to my stationery.

In the end I had to open a new black ink refill and put it in the blue pen casing. It doesn't feel right. The casing is blue when it should be BLACK. Grrrrrrrrrr ...

Stop looking like that. I like being irrational. Go away.

Signing off,

A VERY Disgruntled Caitlin.

You've talked the talk, now I want to see you walk the walk.

Monday, 19 May 2008


You know what? Friends really make my life interesting.

Conversation between myself and my dear roommate last night.

-explicit conversation about a subject of no importance to you guys- XP

Carmen: Admit it la, you're in denial.

Caitlin: No I'm not. *pause* I'm not in denial about your amazing-ness. I say you're amazing all the time. *concealed giggle*

Carmen: I know la, but that one not counted.. that's like saying the Earth is round.

Caitlin: *in undertone* But the Earth isn't round, it's a sphere.. *snigger*

Carmen: OMG shuddup la! The Earth is sort of a round spherical thing.

Get it, get it?

Carmen SO asked for it. Hee=)

ANYWAY. On to things today. Exam is coming up in a months time (June 21-27). I've actually started studying Psychology. *beam* Notice I said STARTED. I'm nowhere near finishing. Unfortunately. Okay. MOVING ON.

I find that some girls are just in a class of their own. Which is a good thing. I won't say as much for some others .... but nevermind. We must all be tolerant, no? =)

Anybody care to think of a theme for the Trinity College 2008 annual ball? I'm supposed to come up with one. Heheh. Help? XD

I'm anal and proud of it, because that means I've changed.

Sunday, 18 May 2008

Tagged by Shereen Liew (ages ago)

1. What is the most important thing in your life?
ME !! Heh. =)

2. Will you consider a sexual relationship before marriage?
Nope, never in a million years..

3. Do you smoke?
Ditto above.

4. What is the latest gadget that you own?
Er.. iPhone? Oh, electric blanket!! It's the best invention in the world, I tell you.. =P

5. Who did you mostly text yesterday?
Er, I have no idea. I didn't text very many people yesterday.

6. How old are you and are you a virgin?
Like Shereen said, 17 going on 18 .. one day after her. But still at the end of the year. It might as well be next year. But it's still this year. Hah. =P

7. What is the last thing that you bought with your own money?
Food. At Victoria Market. Sad, I know. Oh no, wait, it was a movie ticket (Melbourne Central).

8. Chocolate, oreos or villa?
What's villa? Erm.. I thought oreo was chocolate biscuits. Anyway. Chocolate.

9. Where do you wish to get married?
Hmmm.. *smiles and looks into the distance* It has to be some kind of romantic setting.. maybe a beach, or like, countryside, or on some grassy mountain!! *dreamy sigh*

10. How old do you think you will be permanently owned by your love?
I don't think it's you, Shereen, I have no idea what the question is trying to ask either.

11. How many kids do you want?
Erm, lots! Haha. Three at most, I think. But I don't know. We'll see. =)

12. Are you in love?
Yeap, with myself!! XD

13. Where was the last restaurant you had dinner?
Ristorante da Caitlin. XD The last proper restaurant I had dinner at was a few months ago, went I went back to Malaysia for the term 1 holidays. Sad, I know.

14. Name the latest book that you bought?
Gosh, it's been so long since I've bought anything other than food. I don't know, I really can't remember, the last book I bought was probably during the December holidays last year. =(

15. What is your full name?
Caitlin Kang Jia Qian. Have I ever mentioned that I love my name? No, really. =)

16. Do you prefer your mother or father?
Heheh. Depends on which side brings greater benefits. XD Kidding, kidding. I prefer them both. If there's such a thing. But you get my point.

17. Do u believe in GOD?
Errrrrrrrr .... sorry, but no, not really. ><

18. Name a person that you really wish to meet in real life for the first time?
Whaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa ..?? Bugs Bunny! Okay, that came out from nowhere. There's no one I want to meet that I haven't already met. =)

19. Christina or Britney?
I don't really care.. okayyy, that sounded a bit ganas.

20. Do you do your laundry?
YES, UNFORTUNATELY. I've been doing my own laundry since like, February. One of the downsides of living alone in Australia. But it's an experience I probably wouldn't have had otherwise, not least because I'd throw a tantrum if somebody tried to make me do my own laundry back in Malaysia. XD

21. The most exciting place you want to go?
Erm, I have absolutely no idea. Define exciting.

22. Hugs or kisses?
Depends on the person. *smile*

23. Single or attached?
100% single and unavailable. =)

24. Point out 5 things that made the person who tagged you associated with you.
- She's my cousin's friend from music class.
- She was in the same class as me in form 2.
- Her birthday is (unfortunately) one day BEFORE mine.
- She still claims that she's one centimetre taller than me, even though it's not true (or so I like to think, anyway).
- She is a really, really, really good friend and I'm glad to know her. =)

I tag.... Carmen, Taty, Yun Shen, Shereen Tan, Yi Ping.

Discretion. Yes, that's it. You definitely lack it.


I memorised my monologue.

I memorised my monologue.

I MEMORISED my monologue.

I memorised my MONOLOGUE.



Sorry lah, it's really very unbelievable. I actually memorised it in like, less than 20 minutes. It's not like it's very long in the first place, but that's not the point. The point is that I have a very horrible memory and I actually memorised something in such a short time.. it's just amazing. *beam*

So, because I memorised it, I shall type it out for everyone to see. =)

Shall I say how it is in your clothes? A month after your death I wear your blue jacket. The dog at the centre of my life recognises you've come to visit, he's ecstatic. In the left pocket, a hole. In the right, a parking ticket delivered up last August on Bay State Road. In my heart, a scatter like milkweed, a flinging from the pods of the soul. My skin presses your old outline. It's hot and dry inside.

I think of the last day of your life, old friend, how I would unwind it, paste it together in a different collage: Back from the death car idling in the garage, back up the stairs, your praying hands unlaced, reassembling the bits of bread and tuna fish into a ceremony of sandwich; running the home movie backward to a space we could be comfortable in, a kitchen place with vodka and ice, our words like living meat.

Dear friend, you have excited crowds with your example. They swell like wine bags, straining at your seams. I will be years gathering up our words, fishing out letters, snapshots, stains, leaning against this durable cloth, to put on the dumb blue blazer of your death.


The flower that blooms the last is the most beautiful flower of all.

Saturday, 17 May 2008

Picture Post

Long time overdue. =)

Yun Shen. Li Wern. Michele. Yee Hooi. Me.

Yee Hooi. Me. Beebee. Yun Shen. Michele. Li Wern. Gazing at the stars.

Carmen (lala #1). Shereen (lala #2). Yee Hooi (lala #3). Yun Shen(lala #4). Caitlin (lala #5). Jun Jing (lala #6). Michele (lala #7). Stephanie (lala #8). Li Wern (supposed to be #9, but erm.. lala #2). Sorry lah, I know it's freaky. But we were bored. We had to wait for the train. =P

Me. Yee Hooi.

Me. Shereen. Michele.

Shereen. Me. Carmen. Michele. In black.

Shereen. Me. Carmen. Michele. In sepia.

Caitlin. Yee Hooi. She loves me.

Li Wern. Jun Jing. Yee Hooi. Yun Shen. Stephanie. Carmen. Caitlin.

Carmen. Me.



I miss my dog.

Isn't she adorable?


It's a rough world out there.. the only person who will take care of us ............. is ourselves.

Friday, 16 May 2008

Stop. Just stop.

Do you guys ever get the feeling that you're just receiving too much information?

Somehow I just feel that way. Not that it's a bad thing. But it's like, Chemistry class.. lecturer throws information like.. dipole-dipole forces, and you accept it. And then in HOI (History of Ideas).. facts about things like Greco-Roman culture, and you absorb it. And then in Environment and Development, lecturer goes on about aboriginals, and again, you accept it. And then in Maths.. well, Maths is Maths. Need I say more? And then in Psychology, when we actually have to think for ourselves, I can't think anymore. My brain just doesn't want to come to conclusions. Somehow.

It's like, sooooooo much. Especially with like, one lecture after another after another after another... But you know what, it's fun. And I can do it. Yes, I can. =)

On a more interesting note, I went for the END CHILD SLAVERY CONCERT today!! It was pretty good, I guess. At first the turnout was.. pretty miserable. But later on, the crowd got a bit bigger. I suspect a lot of people only came to see Evermore perform. Evermore is a band apparently. Hee=) Never heard of them before. But apparently they're pretty famous. They were good. I liked Bourne's performance too. The Hampdens weren't too bad as well.

Anywayyyy. The whole point is, the concert was for a good cause. And it was pretty fun. So yes, that's good. =)

Okay, I'm tired. Like, really tired. My brain won't function anymore. But I've got to wake up early for Chemistry class. *groan* It isn't compulsory, I don't HAVE to go, but at the rate my Chemistry is going right now.. heheh. I'll DIE if I miss even one of those extra classes. Gah. Goodnight. =)

You're the first thing that comes to my mind when I wake up; and you're the last thing I see before I fall asleep.

Tuesday, 13 May 2008


I wanted to post up pictures, but there's something wrong with my connection today. It's really slow, for some reason. And I forgot my username/password for my Unwired (broadband service provider) account. Damn.

Anyway, since SOME people *hint*carmen*hint* are too embarrassed to talk about a certain *cough* game that we played during Yee Hooi's birthday dinner.. Well, let's just say that I think it should be done justice. *smirk*

The name of the game itself is incriminating enough. Brace yourselves.


Basically, to play this game, someone gives you three names (or rather, for want of a better word, items. Read on. You will understand.). You then select which of these three given choices you would rather Shoot, Shag, or Marry. You can only choose one person to shoot, one person to shag, and one person to marry. You must choose once you have been given the names. And contrary to what Alastair thinks, you cannot choose to "marry" someone and immediately divorce that said someone. However, I will not comment on the statement that a certain someone made .. "But then right, think about it, if you marry someone, you'll definitely have to shag them. That means like, unlimited shagging."

Yes. These people are actually my friends. *rolls eyes*

ANYWAY. There were some VERY ENTHUSIASTIC players. It started out pretty normal. Like, with real people. Again, read on, you will understand. We must have played it throughout the whole dinner. As I said, it started out normal. Little bit of laughter here and there, a bit of hesitation, not wanting to give answers, a bit of embarrassment. As the night wore on.. (and I'm inclined to believe that they put crack in the food).. things started getting more ....



Yee Hooi: OMG I want to shag ******! I want to shag ******!!

Carmen: Okay, okay, calm down! Not so loud okay!! People looking at us already!!

Yee Hooi: (talking to Shen, who wasn't paying attention to her) Oi, I want to shag ****** la!!

Carmen: (glances around nervously) Shhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.... softer laaaaaaa ....

I really can't believe that we talked about all this so openly in PUBLIC. It was absolutely HILARIOUS. And shooting, shagging and marrying people wasn't the worst of it. They moved on to lecturers, teachers, celebrities, fruits, cartoon characters, vegetables, animals and the likes. Can you imagine?

"Okay, shoot, shag, or marry. Banana, orange, apple."

"Shoot, shag, or marry. Goofy, Donald Duck or Daisy Duck."

"Erm.. Durian, pineapple or mangosteen?"

"Barney, Teletubbies or Bananas in Pajamas?"

"Carrot, cucumber or garlic?"

And you know what? They actually answered the questions. Makes you fear for their sanity, doesn't it? Oh, by the way, "they" are Yee Hooi, Carmen, Alastair, Jun Jing, Ryan, Michele, Shereen, Dev, Yun Shen, Li Wern, Eric, Stephanie, Chin Yen, Ethel. And me. But I assure you, I had nothing to do with the vegetables, cartoon characters, fruits, and all manner of .... other items.

Eric made a very amusing comment. Actually he made a lot of amusing comments throughout the night.

"If you want to marry me, what can I say, I'm marryable. If you want to shag me, what can I say, I'm f**kable."

Another one was when Eric gave Alastair a difficult choice to make.

It was between a girl Alastair REALLY dislikes, Stephanie and Ethel, who were sitting right next to him. Even though Stephanie and Ethel were virtually begging him to "shoot" them first, Alastair obviously shot the girl he dislikes. He took a long time to think whether he would rather marry Stephanie and shag Ethel, or the other way around.

Alastair: Eh, I'm having a hard time la ....

Eric: Ooooh. What's hard, hmmmmmmmm?

You get it, right? Okay, it took me a while. Like, five minutes later. Whaaaaaaaat?? I can't be blamed. I've got such an innocent mind. *beam*

Oh, another thing I found really funny was when I gave Carmen a choice between Alastair and two other people (I can't recall). She shot Alastair more or less immediately.

Caitlin: Eh, Alastair.. you've been shot!!

Alastair: *narrows eyes at Carmen* Thanks ahhhhh..

Carmen: Sorry la!! I just can't imagine marrying you or whatever! So I shoot you la!

Alastair: Actually right, come to think of it.. I want to be shot. *bright smile* Thank you!!

Carmen: Ehhhhh.. what's that supposed to mean?? Hmphhhh.

Funny, funny. =)

I'd update more, but I've got Chemistry Practical tomorrow morning. It's 10.30 p.m. now. I'm tired. Goodnight. =)

p.s- thanks for the dinner Yee Hooi! *muakz*

Sunday, 11 May 2008


Dear Mummy,

Happy Mother's Day.

It's been eighteen years. When that figure is there, it looks so unbelievable. Eighteen years is a long time. Eighteen years is almost two decades. In eighteen years, you could have traveled the world a few times over. In eighteen years, you could have been a high ranking career woman. In eighteen years, you could have done all those things you meant to do but never got round to doing. In eighteen years, you could have done all the shopping you wanted to do without a worry in the world.

Instead, eighteen years, eighteen long years is how long you put up with me.

I remember your scoldings, your tears, your anger, and your frustration.

I remember my accusations, my dislike, my words and my tears.

It's funny, how I never noticed that you were always right. In every situation, even though I couldn't see it at that time, you were right. Maybe I should have listened to you. But maybe if I did, I wouldn't be who I am now.

You always wanted to protect me, to prevent me from making the mistakes you made, or saw others make. You wanted to keep me from hurting. You wanted to give me a life that was better than the one you had. You wanted to give me the chance to do all the things you never got to do. You wanted me to succeed, so that you could be proud of me. So that I could be proud of myself.

You gave so much. You quit your job to take care of me. You sacrificed all the things you wanted to do, so that I could do the things I wanted to do. You fought, so that I wouldn't have to.

And I repaid you by getting angry at you. I repaid you by hurting you. I repaid you by going against your express wishes. I repaid you by doing all the things you told me not to do. I repaid you by arguing with you. I repaid you by telling you that you were being unfair on me.

I realise this now.

Is it too late?

It's been a while since you've scolded me. It's been a while since you've gotten angry at me. It's been a while since you've been frustrated with me. It's been a while since you cried because of me.

I've changed. I'm not who I used to be anymore. I'm different now. I'm better off than I used to be.

Now that I look back, you were right. All those times.. you were right. I can see that now. If I could, would I reverse all that time and listen to what you said, instead of putting myself through all the things that happened? No, I don't think I would. All those things made me who I am now. But I can see that you were right. I can see that you tried to protect me. I can see that you didn't want me to go through all that. But mum, I did go through all that, and I did survive, and I'm a better person now. Is that enough?

I want to be proud of myself. I want you to be proud of me.

One day I want to look back and say, "My mum was the drive that lead me to success. She drove and drove and drove me to make me a better person. Sometimes it was hard, but no pain, no gain. My mum knew that, and she kept pushing me to reach higher and higher, because she knew I could do it. Without her, I would never have become the person I am now."


For all the times I didn't appreciate your love, your care, your kindness, your sacrifice and your words .........

Thank You.

For all the times I hurt you, made you cry, made you angry, made you suffer ..........

I'm Sorry.

I Love You, Mum.

Happy Mother's Day.

Friday, 9 May 2008

Potong Steam Queen

I'm too lazy to post up pictures.

Warning: This post contains hazardous (potong steam) elements. Those with weak hearts, please do not read any further.

Yee Hooi is a very POTONG STEAM person.

As most of you are probably aware, her birthday was on Wednesday (7/5/2008). We surprised tried to surprise her three times. Only the last time worked.

Attempt #1

Carmen, Yun Shen, Michele and I decided to go to Yee Hooi's room at around midnight to surprise her. We duly went to her room. We were pretty excited, speaking in hushed whispers and all that. I covered the peephole with my hand, and the others started banging on the door.

And lo behold !!


We stood there banging for a couple of minutes, with cameras ready and everything. Then Michele said, "Maybe she's scared to open the door la, because you know if people bang on your door at like, so late at night you sure scared one right?" So I removed my hand from the peephole, and we knocked a few times and ran to the end of the corridor.

And we waited.

And waited.

And waited.

And waited.

"Eh, she's not coming out la."

"Where can like that one?? I heard feet shuffling just now!!"

"What if she's not in???"

"I'm sure I heard somebody moving inside!!"

"OMG this is so potong la!!"

*groan* "Potong, potong, potong, POTONG !!!"

"If she's not inside I'm going to murder her.."

You get the gist. After knocking for a few more minutes, we decided to call her. Shen dialed her number and waited for her to pick up.

"Hi Yee Hooi !!! Happy Birthday!! Where are you now??"

Shen's face changes. Like, seriously, change. And not in a very favourable way. In the you-messed-with-me-I'm-going-to-kill-you kind of way.


Note: We stay in College Square on Swanston. The other college square is at least ten minutes walk away from the one on Swanston.

"Okay-lah, Michele and I come and join you."

Shen puts down the phone and looks at us jakuns nice, super kind friends who were supposed to surprise Yee Hooi and tells us, "You know where she is now?? She's at College Square Lygon with Alastair watching meteors!!!"

"Are you serious????"


"Why the hell is she at College Square Lygon??"

"So potong la she!!"

"OMG I'm going to killlllllll her!!!"

Basically, she was at College Square on Lygon. I think Alastair, Beebee, Jun Jing, Eric, Lin and Vincent surprised her or something. They met there because there was supposed to be a meteor shower in the wee hours of the morning and they wanted to go watch it.

Michele, Yun Shen and I walked to College Square on Lygon. It was late. And pretty scary. Anyway, we got there, and the first thing I did when I found out where Yee Hooi was (she was in the lounge), I ran there screaming, "Yee Hooi I'm going to murder you!!" and wrung her neck. Very, very satisfying. You'd find it satisfying too, if you stood outside her door and BANGED ON IT waiting to surprise her for MORE THAN TEN MINUTES. Hee. =)

Anyway, after she apologized a few thousand times, we showed all of them the videos of us banging on her door. They found it very amusing. I beg to differ. Anyway, that night (morning, rather) we went to watch the meteor shower, and guess what?? NO METEORS APPEARED. According to Yee Hooi, it's her fault, because she's "so hot that all the water evaporate and become clouds". *rolls on floor laughing*

Okay that's enough for this one, I think, it's long enough. THANKS TO YEE HOOI. =P

Attempt #2

Yee Hooi's sister planned a surprise for her. To do that, she needed Li Wern's help. Li Wern is Yee Hooi's roommate. Li Wern came up to my place to put the stuff she bought for the surprise WE planned for Yee Hooi. Carmen and I went down with Li Wern to surprise Yee Hooi. Li Wern opened the door and called out "Hello!". No answer. The bedroom door was closed.

Note: All conversation was held in whispers.

"Oh, she's praying."

"Why she so potong one??"

"She should be done soon la.."

And so we waited.

And waited.

And waited.

And waited.


We lit the candle on the cake three times. We blew it out three times.

We were surprised the cake didn't melt.

Carmen started cam-whoring and looking at Yee Hooi's baby biscuits and stash of Lindt chocolate.

And we waited.

FINALLY, we heard her stand up. We quickly lit the candle and Li Wern got Yee Hooi's sister on the phone, because, obviously, the surprise (the cake) was from Yee Hooi's sister. So when Yee Hooi slid the door open, we said "Surprise!!", and Li Wern handed Yee Hooi the phone.

"Eh, hi!!"

"Eh, you call me back later okay, call me back later!"


"Oh okay okay, you talk now, talk now!!"

Potong or not, you tell me? Yee Hooi, Yee Hooi. XP

When she got off the phone..

"Omg, thank you, all of you.. did you all wait very long?"

*Li Wern, Caitlin and Carmen stare at Yee Hooi disbelievingly*

"Sorry la!! I didn't here you all come in!"

"How could you not have heard us come in?! Li Wern said 'Hello' so loudly!!"

"I was listening to worship song on the iPod and praying!"

*Li Wern, Caitlin and Carmen sigh very audibly*

Once again, potong or not?

Attempt #3; Success #1

We planned a potluck dinner for Yee Hooi. Ryan, Moon Yee, Shereen, Alastair, Carmen, Jun Jing, MICHELE, Yun Shen, Stephanie, Ethel, Dev and a few of Yee Hooi's church friends gathered at the College Square Swanston courtyard with food and everything. When everyone was ready, I went to Yee Hooi's room to bring her down. She thought we were going to the library, because she needed to return books, and I told her I wanted to go do research (for the History of Ideas essay).

Li Wern and I brought Yee Hooi down. We were supposed to blindfold her in the lift, but Yee Hooi was erm.. hehe. Not co-operating. Anyway, we managed to blindfold her a bit after we got out of the lift. And you know what she did? She started screaming. Yee Hooi's scream is a terrible thing to behold. Later, we found out that all the people in the courtyard could hear Yee Hooi screaming from the lounge.

So yes, she was surprised. Like, FINALLY. She kept saying, "Omg, thank you, thank you, I love you all so much!!"

And the only thing I could say in reply to that?

"You had BETTER love us."

Please note that these three attempts all happened within 24 hours. I tell you, Yee Hooi is the "potong steam" queen.

But we all still love her. *sniff* She had better appreciate it. *grin*

P.s- The reason I didn't write this post sooner was because I looked at the computer screen, and I thought of all the "potong" things Yee Hooi did, and I just closed the screen. *exasperated sigh*

Well, anyway dear, I really hope you enjoyed yourself. =)

Wednesday, 7 May 2008

Happy Birthday Yee Hooi!

My sex-ay friend has turned 18!!


Bask in her light.

Appreciate her beauty.

Rejoice in the fun times you've shared.

She loves me.

And she definitely loves herself. *grin*

Happy 18th Birthday, darling, and may the year bring you everything you've been looking for. *hearts*

Tuesday, 6 May 2008



I GOT IN !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

*prolonged scream*

I'm happyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


You have been chosen to represent Trinity College
Foundation Studies Student Committee for 2008!!

The first meeting for ALL committees will be on
Monday 12th May at lunchtime 12.30pm in Room 1
Grattan St - next to the Student Services office.

I look forward to seeing you all there!



Excuse me. I'm just really really really happy. =)

Monday, 5 May 2008


EAP (English for Academic Purposes) today was so super fun! Chris (my EAP tutor) jumbled us up into three groups of five, because he said we have to do an oral presentation in a few weeks time. My group members - Ruby, Audrey, Pei Qi, Siew Ling and of course, myself. We duly switched places and sat with our group members. I sat on Ruby's right. Audrey was on Ruby's left. For no reason in particular, the three of us were being very funny (and probably a bit lame) amusing ourselves during class.

Example #1:

We were supposed to be writing an introductory paragraph for non-verbal communication.

*all look around and see that everyone else has started*

Ruby: Eh, how to start?

Caitlin: I know I know!! Eons ago ... *majestic hand gesture*

Ruby: Ooh, how about since the beginning of time?

Caitlin: OMG *laugh*, we sound so fairy tale-ish!!

Example #2:

We were trying to think of a word to describe how non-verbal communication began.

Ruby: What's that word? Origi... origina... origination.. ORIGINATION!!

Caitlin: Ohmygod Ruby, you've got to be joking. ORIGINATION???!! Audrey, did you hear what Ruby said?

*all three burst out laughing*

And we teased Ruby for the rest of the class. And after the class as well.

Example #3:

Ruby needed to borrow Audrey's eraser.

Audrey's eraser.

Ruby: Oh, so cool, Audrey! You have a low-fat eraser!!

Caitlin: Huh?? Low-fat eraser???

Ruby: Yeah!! Because it says LIGHT on the eraser!

Audrey: Okayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy..

Caitlin: Ohmygod Ruby, I've got nothing to say.. *bangs head on hand*

Example #4:

We were discussing our introduction for non-verbal communication. We came up with a sentence. The sentence was "Despite the differences in culture throughout the world, many forms of non-verbal communication are universally understood".

Audrey: Oh, so you mean the aliens can understand also?

Caitlin & Ruby: WHAAAAAAAAAAT??

Example #5:

After class, while walking towards Swanston Street.

Pei Qi: We can meet up at my place! It's opposite the Crown (a hotel in the city)..

Siew Ling: Harh? So far!! But that's not in Melbourne!!

Ruby: *confused look* What do you mean that's not in Melbourne? Of course it's in Melbourne!! It's in the city!

Siew Ling: But it's so far!! Anywhere that's not here (around the campus) is not in Melbourne!!

Very very funny people. I had fun. I haven't laughed like that for a long time. Looking forward to meeting up with them to practice our oral presentation.


Sunday, 4 May 2008

Yee Hooi

You know that rhetorical question, "What are friends for?"

It seems that Yee Hooi answers that question perfectly.

Before this, I never really thought that she was that type of person, you know? I mean, she was always a fun person to hang around and joke with and everything, I just never thought I could share my problems with her.

And you know what? I was wrong.

And I've never been happier to be wrong in my life.

Maybe it's because recently she's embraced a better life. Maybe it's because I never tried hard enough. The reason doesn't really matter, what matters is that our friendship means so much more now.

Yesterday, when I was feeling down, she talked to me for hours, trying to cheer me up. And I really appreciated it. It was so good to know that someone really cared, you know?

And today, she suddenly called me and asked me to come down to her room because she had a surprise for me. I was pretty suspicious, because I thought she was going to.. oh, I don't know, spray water on me or something like that. Seems like something she would do, isn't it?

But who knew.. When I knocked on her room door, I stood to the side, just in case she decided to spray water on me. She opened the door and shouted "Surprise!!"

And she gave me a packet of lotus mooncakes. The ones that I was looking for but couldn't find when I went to the city with Li Wern today. A small act of kindness, maybe, but I was really touched.

So thank you, dear, for everything. I really appreciate it.