Gah the stupid blogger upload photos thing isn't working. Hmph. It's SUPPOSED to work. I need to post pictures. XD



Hmmm. Graduation's on Wednesday!! Gonna miss everyone ....... *sob*

sigh.

I am seriously stressed out. No, I wouldn't say stressed out, actually.




The truth is, I'm just TIRED.



Melvin's been coming practically every day to teach me Biology, most of the time for about 5 or 6 hours. Yeah, maybe I fool around and all.. but that's just how I learn. I make a lot of noise and ask a lot of unrelated questions.

If I'm quiet and just accept what the teachers say.. That just means that I don't have a clue what they're talking about. So, yeah, maybe I don't get much done. But I understand what's being taught, isn't that the whole point? And it's not that I memorise it. I UNDERSTAND. And I'll (most probably) remember it even AFTER exams and all.

Plus, my mum keeps badgering me to study, study, and study.

Do your Add Maths, Caitlin.

CAITLIN !! Do your Chemistry.

You should do some studying yourself. Don't depend on other people all the time.

Your tuition teachers are only there to help you. You must put in the effort yourself.

STUDY YOUR MORAL, IF NOT NO DINNER !

What happened to your Sejarah? You haven't even touched it yet. Why haven't you touched it yet??


Whatever extra time I have I want to spend SLEEPING or just doing nothing, because I'm tired the rest of the time.

I barely get to use the computer anytime before 11.30 p.m., because my brother will be playing Dota (the "my PMR is over" excuse so he can play 24/7 ..... almost.), and of course, my mother won't tell him to let me use it.

Yeah, maybe, you say I shouldn't use the computer, if I'm so tired, instead I should go to sleep and blah blah blah. But how many of you spend the whole week studying Biology and not use the computer at all? Huh?

And, of course, when it's late, my mother will scream at me every 5 minutes to get off the computer. So while I'm using the computer I have to listen to lectures....

How many times have I told you to go to sleep?

Don't you want your shoulder to heal? I told you the best time for your body cells to regenerate is 10 p.m. to 2 a.m. !

You have to wake up early tomorrow to study !!

This is a bad habit. What you are doing is not important. Leave it to tomorrow.

Stop it right now or I will pull out the cable!

Do you want me to take the laptop away or not??

I already give you so much liberty by leaving the laptop here, now I ask you to go to bed you can't even obey??

Tomorrow I am not going to give you the laptop, I am going to hide it so you cannot use it.

I am serious. If you don't get off now.....................

GET OFF THE COMPUTER NOW !!!!!!!!!!!


Sigh. I can accept all of this. I really can. I'm sick of it, but I still tolerate it. What I can't stand, however, is when people say that they're disappointed in me and yadda yadda yadda.

Like, my Additional Mathematics tuition teacher sent me a message yesterday.

"Hey kiddo, have you attempted your work (SPM 2004 Add Math paper 2) yet? If not, then no point having a class tmr let me know"

I didn't reply to that, because I only finished four questions, and my mum would've blown up if she (tuition teacher) didn't come the next day for that reason. Plus, I knew that my mum had been messaging her, and complaining that I haven't doing my work and I've been like that since primary school etc etc.

The next day (today), about an hour or so before class was supposed to start, my teacher sent me another message.

"Caitlin, have you finished your work? if not i won't be coming today"

I replied this time..

"5 more questions to go. I've finished Section A."

And her reply..

"That's not good enough, you had more than a week to do them and it's still not completed, i'm pretty disappointed, no point having class today, spm is less than a month away, it's up to you what you want to make of it, i'm trying my best to help you"

See what I mean? That kind of thing really pisses me off. No, actually, it just makes me really sad and frustrated. Because I AM trying. I hate it when people do things like that. Making out that I'm such a lazy girl who doesn't do anything when I'm actually doing so much more than I can cope with.

I don't even have time to do Yee Hooi and Louise's autograph books. I don't have time to get something for Mon Wei (her birthday's coming up). I don't spend time with my dog anymore, because I don't HAVE time. And STILL I keep quiet.

Anyway.. I replied to my teacher (I was kind of angry and frustrated.. I started crying while I was typing the message)..

"My mum's been getting my cousin 2come teach me bio every day dis past week,n he stays 4over 5hours most of d time,up 2past 11,some nights.I didnt hv much time 2do anythin,wtv time i had i spent sleeping cuz i was too tired 2do anythin else.If my mum's been feeding u some sob story abt how im not finishing my work & ive always been like dis blah blah blah,well,datz juz 2bad 4me isn't it?I'm trying,you know,& itz reli hard 2keep all of u happy.I dont hv time 2do my frens autograph books,& graduation is coming.I dont mind, datz not very important compared to studies,i dont complain but it seems very unfair cuz i'm really trying."

Yeah. Long message, huh? Sent in four parts. It just makes me sooo ...... argh, I don't even know how to describe it.. I just hate it when people express disappointment in me. ESPECIALLY when I actually make an effort. If I don't put in any effort, then, yeah, I deserve it, but............

It's just so ...................................................... SIGH.


Perfect lyrics to go with my emotions. Just change the "dad" in the lyrics to "mum" and it's golden.

"Perfect"

Hey dad look at me

Think back and talk to me

Did I grow up according to plan?

And do you think I'm wasting my time doing things I wanna do?

But it hurts when you disapprove all along

And now I try hard to make it

I just want to make you proud

I'm never gonna be good enough for you

I can't pretend that I'm alright

And you can't change me

'Cuz we lost it all

Nothing lasts forever

I'm sorry I can't be perfect

Now it's just too late and

We can't go back

I'm sorry I can't be perfect

I try not to think

About the pain I feel inside

Did you know you used to be my hero?

All the days you spent with me

Now seem so far away

And it feels like you don't care anymore

And now I try hard to make it

I just want to make you proud

I'm never gonna be good enough for you

I can't stand another fight

And nothing's alright

'Cuz we lost it all

Nothing lasts forever

I'm sorry I can't be perfect

Now it's just too late and

We can't go back

I'm sorry I can't be perfect

Nothing's gonna change the things that you said

Nothing's gonna make this right again

Please don't turn your back

I can't believe it's hard

Just to talk to you

But you don't understand

'Cuz we lost it all

Nothing lasts forever

I'm sorry I can't be perfect

Now it's just too late and

We can't go back

I'm sorry I can't be perfect

'Cuz we lost it all

Nothing lasts forever

I'm sorry I can't be perfect

Now it's just too late and

We can't go back

I'm sorry I can't be perfect

I'm not angry. I'm just sad. That's all.

aaaaaahhhhh ! =D

OMIGOSH !

ACCEPTED !!

I GOT IN !!

Watch out, Trinity College, 'cause Caitlin is coooooooooooooooooomingggggggg !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

=)

I'm sooooooooooooooo happy.


And relieved.


Carmen's right.


Everything IS right in the world.

*faints*

I am happy happy HAPPY today !

Lookie at what a wonderfully sweet junior I have !!

She did this in her blog for me !!!!!!


Tuesday, October 16, 2007

May I have your attention please,Miss Caitlin Kang?

A little something for my beloved senior,friend,and sister(If you realise that we kinda look alike when our hair are tied up to the back)-CAITLIN.

Girl,about the issue which made you extremely unhappy,I know Ive said lots of thing in your blogand you may not wanna talk about it anymore but I just want you to know that life is like a piano.White keys are happy moments;black keys are sad moments.Yet bear in mind that both keys are played together to give sweet music.Therefore,think positively and consider the consequences before yo do anything,especially anything foolish..Everything would be okay at the end of the day.

If life is a game,
I wish you'll always win.
If life is a journey,
I wish you will walk on roses.
If life is a rainbow,
I wish you would have the brightest days.
If life is a joy,
I wish you would always smile

.JUST BE HAPPY AND SMILE.

Happy Reading,

Yeeaun




Don't ya just LOVE this girl?! I KNOW all of you are jealous! Ahahaha !


=)


Everything is wonderfully beautiful and right..................... for now, at least. =P

Trinity College, here I come !! .............. I hope.

First off.....



CONGRATZ, CARMEN !!!



Now. Make sure all of you cross your fingers and toes for me ..........................

I just submitted the application form for Trinity College (Australia) today, so....

Wish me luck !! =)

blah..

Okay, this counts as what happened yesterday, because it's 1.01 a.m. now. So I'm sure you people can all imagine that I wrote all this at 11.59 p.m. on the 16th of October 2007. =)

Would you believe it, Melvin (my cousin) stopped teaching me at 11.15 p.m. today. *groans* It's nothing short of slave labour, I tell you.. =P Nah, just kidding. But he is INCREDIBLY persistent. Seriously. I mean. It's like, he wants me to get an A more than I myself actually want that A grade. Gosh, that's embarrassing. >.<

Actually I do want to get an A for Biology and everything. It's just that I haven't gotten my head around to the fact that I actually have to do some studying to get that grade. You know. I'm kind of still hoping it'll just fall out of the sky and hit me smack in the face. The A grade, I mean. =)

On another rather more interesting note, I went to Carmen's house this morning. With my whole family in tow. Better than nothing, I suppose. Beggars can't be choosers. So we went there to bake.

I brought my camera, just so I could catch Carmen baking (just to give everyone a shock, you understand, because, you know, it's HER baking. XP ).

YES, WOMAN, THIS IS REVENGE FOR DELETING ALL THE PICTURES I TOOK OF YOU !

*evil laugh*

XD

So anyway, she broke an egg..... ahahahaha.. *rolls on the floor laughing*

Well, she claims it wasn't her fault. But technically, the egg couldn't have grown little legs and committed egg-icide (I know it isn't a word, but hey, why not? XD ), could it? =P

Ok, fine, what happened was the Miss Carmen Teoh Jiah Min put it on the table and it rolled off. It was hilarious, I tell you. You should've seen her mum's reaction. I took a picture of the spilt egg and everything. But dear Carmen took the camera and deleted them. (Why would she do that, I wonder? I wasn't going to do anything to humiliate her.. *sweet innocent smile*)

Hah. XP Anyway.......................

Looks pretty erm.. inedible, dontcha think?

getting a weeeeee bit better..

don't you guys even THINK of saying a word. XD

Ahah. MY masterpiece. =)

Attempted murder (note the close proximity of the knife) on the grounds of taking a picture of her performing surgery on the baking chocolate.. =P

Carmen's masterpiece =P

It was actually pretty good.. -say thank you, Carmen.. XD -

Okay, I admit, this didn't turn out that well, Carmen and I got too erm.. enthusiastic and dumped just a biiiiiiiiiiiiiiiit too much baking chocolate in. =P

=)

My cousin, Melvin is super super smart. And he's a brilliant teacher. Seriously. And he's willing to spend time teaching a dunderhead like me. That's really says something. x.X


And he taught me Biology and Mathematics for, like, 5 hours on Sunday. And for almost 6 hours (Additional Mathematics and Biology) on Saturday. I didn't feel sleepy. At all. Now THAT is saying something.


And can you imagine, he's been out of school for.. oh, more than 5 years. I think. Something like that. He can still remember all this ... crap ... that we learn. PLUS. He learnt it in Bahasa Malaysia. We're learning it in English. Go figure.

I finally learned how to do that Earth thing. Earth as a sphere. =P I mean, getting me to understand is not the easiest thing to do. But this way is fun. I got to eat an orange AND learn to do that thing. *grin*

gah.

I am feeling bored right now. I feel as if SPM is over. IT'S NOT. That's bad. There's exactly one month left before SPM starts, give or take a few hours.

That's 30 days.

720 hours.

43 200 minutes.

2 592 000 seconds.
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And a second passes in, like......... a second.
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Where did all the time go???
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I'm doomed.
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Anyway.. thank you to all the marvellous, marvellous people who are worried about me and give me advice (and sound exactly like my mother-but that's not the point XD ). Thank you thank you thank you for caring about me and for all the erm.. motherly advice. =)

Thanks, Carmen, now I can actually brag that you care about me (*grins*), thanks Yee Hooi, for making me feel better. *can't believe I'm saying this* but thanks Jia Ming for the advice and everything. Thanks, Yee Aun, I really appreciate it. Thanks Wei Khai for making me calm down and telling me all that stuff (although I didn't really like hearing it at that time). Thanks Iridescence, although I don't know who you are, for being caring enough to fill up my tagbox with advice. =)

And to all my dear friends who sympathise with me.

You guys rock.

More pictures. =)

More pictures from the 5 Science 6 Class Gathering, courtesy of Louis Nga. =)

Me. Zoe. Ruth. The Three Green Shirts. XP Everyone was asking if Ruth and I pre-arranged our outfit colours. =.=" Now, why they should think we would do that, I'd really like to find out.

I have no idea why Theng Fei took this. I just finished washing my hands. =P

See me, at the right hand corner?? I like my hair in this shot.

Theng Fei didn't get me this time. *smirk*

Don't mess with Caitlin. XD

Ching Qiu. Xing Yi. Irene. Dek Ric. Yinn Jye. Me.

Theng Fei caught me spacing out. =P

And Dek Ric tried sneaking up on me. Didn't work. XD

Micheal. Terence. (Incidentally, party crasher *no offense, tawachi, just kidding anyway =P* trying to hide his shaving accident) Me. Ruth. Purani. Gabriel. Jac.

Jia Ming. (attempting to look... ahhhh... need I say more?? XD ) Louise Soh. Zoe.

By the way, Happy 16th Birthday Bryan Voo !! =)





~I'm disappointed as hell, but what can I do? You thought me how to live and see the light again, you thought me to do things for MYSELF. I really don't want to throw that away, but what's the point, if you're not standing by me? I knew it wouldn't have happened. But how I wished... oh, how I wished... Even so, maybe I can keep on hoping, because you thought me how to. ~

Bored. =)

Today was boring. None of the teachers came to class. Puan Chan isn't counted. She gave us our diagnostic test. Oh, by the way, her pronunciation is REALLY funny. She pronounces "ions" weirdly (I'm sure everyone knows how to pronounce ions. Anyway, it's like, "eye-ons". Something like that.). She said it "yons". Or, well, "yawns". Everyone was like, trying to control their laughter. It was funny. =)

Anyway, after break there was this Chinese seminar in the hall, for, like, 2 hours. It was MAJORLY boring. But I had some fun drawing on my hand.. heheh..

Isn't it pretty? =)

And also on Ruth's, Yee Hooi's, Shereen's, Mon Wei's and Carmen's. Michelle was sitting too far away.. =( *sniff* hehe.


Ooh, I took my level K test for Kumon. And... and... and... I MISSED group 2 by HALF A MARK. A stinking half mark. So I have to take the test AGAIN. Hmph. Should have reviewed the papers before doing the test, like the instructor said to. X.X


By the way, my mum insisted that I take a picture of my first attempt at making brownies. (I burnt them. XD ) I'm fully convinced that she means to laugh at me over that in a few years time. I shall post the picture up anyway, so that all of you can laugh at me. =)

Looks pretty bad, doesn't it? Luckily the second, third and fourth batches turned out better...

How does it compare? XP

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5 Science 6 Class Gathering

Fun, Fun, FUN !! The event? --> 5S6 class gathering. At Jia Ming's HUGE house. 6th October 2007. Saturday.


It was a potluck thing, so everyone brought some food. So we ended up with A LOT of food. The guys amused themselves with the barbecue set for a long time. Fanning the charcoal and all. Guys' job, apparently. =P I made brownies.



No, you didn't read wrongly.. I made them, I really did !! *self-congratulatory smile* I made like, four batches. Which was like, way too much. I brought only two batches, and they only finished one. Not because it wasn't good! (I think.) =P There weren't many people there. A bit less than 30. And one batch is like, 24 brownies or something. So. =) It's ok. I shall bring some to the rink for the skaters to eat. So I get to poison more people. XD And I shall bring some to school on Monday too. *evil laugh*
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So anyway, Jia Ming sent me a map to his house online, which I printed out, and I'm proud to say that I actually managed to help my mum work out which way to go. =D Of course, it wasn't that difficult, it was very straight forward... but that's not the point ! I, I , Caitlin, managed to figure it out. And that's saying something. Considering the fact that I can even get lost in Mid Valley (can you believe it? I actually DID get lost a few times in there. I blame it on my parents. They don't bring me out often enough.) =)


Well, we didn't really do that much other than eating, eating and pigging out, in general. But there was a lot of laughing and I know I had fun. Long overdue fun. Almost made me think that SPM was over.


We played this game (Michael's idea), that each person gets a card, and the person who gets the ace of spades has to do a dare. Sort of. The first unlucky one was Wei Xiang. He had to kiss Louis Nga. Of course, everything was captured on video. =) And then Wei Xiang got unlucky AGAIN. So he had to *ahem* squeeze Khee Xiong's butt, or something. XD Then Louise Soh had to talk to the speaker (in the home theatre room) as if the speaker was her lover. After that Theng Fei had to dance to a Destiny Child song. And he got unlucky AGAIN. He and Bin Yun had to feed each other brownies.. blindfolded!! I took this video, so I'll attach it if I can.. *rolls on floor laughing* I was laughing so much that I couldn't really hold the camera very steady.. =P A lot of the pictures are in Louis' camera, so I shall upload them when I get them from him. =)

This was seriously fun. And my mum was SO extremely nice. I SMSed her halfway through to tell her to pick me up at 10. At 10.20 she still hadn't called me or anything, so I SMSed her.. "What time are you coming? ". It's not normal for you to be late. =P miss call me when you reach?" She called me a minute later, I thought she was going to tell me that she'd been waiting outside Jia Ming's house for 30 minutes already. But wonder of wonders, she said, "I just left the house 5 minutes ago, so I should be there in about 20 minutes. You sounded like you were having a lot of fun so I decided to let you stay later so you can concentrate fully on doing your Add Maths and Chemistry revision tomorrow." So cool, right? I mean, That's like, my mum speaking. She picked me up late. At, like, 11 p.m. I was, and am still totally stunned. =)




Anyway. Pictures............... XP

Jennie. Me.

Theng Fei. Me. -look at me, I'm TALL !! *gloats* Hey, I need to gloat whenever I can, okay?? The chance doesn't come very often. XD -

Me. Ruthie.

Me. Jia Ming's sister. Isn't she just ADORABLE?

Shiyi.. I know this is a few hours late.. but.. HAPPY BIRTHDAY !!! =) XOXO !!