Decisions.

... because, well, what if you don't make the right choice?





Everything we do, every single day, is all because of decisions we've made in the past. The past being a second ago, a minute, an hour, a day, a week, a month, a year, a decade.. And the decisions we're making now will become one of those decisions we've made in the past, and will affect our future. The future being the next second, next minute, next hour, next day, next week, next month, next year, next decade.. and for the rest of our lives.

So how do we know whether what we're doing is right? How do we know whether we're doing what we're meant to do? How do we know where each decision, no matter how small, will lead us?

But we don't know.

So what can we do? Do we close our eyes, and let someone else decide for us? Do we let the situation play out, let ourselves be moved by the swirling multitudes of purposes in the universe? Do we take a stand and do things we way we want to, despite not knowing the outcome? Do we blindfold ourselves, jump off a cliff that seems to have no end, take a leap of faith?

Do we hold on, do we let go, do we stand up, do we sit down, do we talk, do we hold our silence, do we ask for protection, do we protect ourselves, do we argue, do we keep our peace, do we anchor on, do we drift away..

How would we know what to do?

And what if, what if, you're not the only one who will be affected by these decisions. What if, well, other people are affected. Some people will be happy, others will be sad. Some will be overjoyed, others will be hurt. Some will be glad, others will be mad. Some will be supportive, others will be b*tchy.

How can you choose?

Who are you to say who should be happy, or sad, overjoyed, or hurt, glad, or mad, supportive, or... not so supportive. Who are you to make these choices? Who are you to make a decision that may affect their lives, whether in a good way or bad? Who are you to choose alone, when so many other people will be affected by it?

But you have no choice.

You have to choose. You have to make a decision. Because if you don't, people are affected too. Because if you don't, everything is just hanging in limbo. Because if you don't, things can't move on. Because if you don't, you'll have to make it sooner or later anyway. Because if you don't, YOU can't move on. And if you don't move on.. you're stuck. You're stuck when everyone else is moving on, and they can't save you, because the currents are pulling you too hard, too fast.

Then the situation will play out, whether you like it or not, and now you have no say in it.

So the only solution is that you have to take the wheels while you still can. Take the wheels and drive, just go on driving, even though you haven't seen the end. Keep on driving, even if you don't know where you're going. Keep on driving, even if you don't know where the road will take you. Because the chances are, if you keep on driving, you'll find your destination. And maybe it won't be as much as you were expecting. Maybe it will be more than you were expecting. Maybe it will be exactly what you were expecting. No one knows.

But one thing's for sure?

If you stay there, stuck.. you're never going to get there.

Wherever "there" is.

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CaitlinKang

But I've got to try.