..regret..

There's one thing I really regret. Something I should have done. Something I didn't do. Something I'll never get the chance to do now. I should have joined Calyx. When I see the bond between all of them..

It makes me feel sad, because I could've been a part of that. They're all so close, like sisters.

And I really regret that I'm not a part of that. The thing that makes it worse is that I COULD have been part of that.

I DID join, in form 3, during the holidays. For almost 3 months. I even went for one of the camps. But I didn't continue after the holidays.. I didn't continue and I really regret it. Sigh.. Quite a few of them tried to persuade me to stay on.. Shereen, especially.. She even told me I could make the top 5 (AJK post) and squad for 2006.. But I still listened to my mum when she told me no. I could have tried harder to persuade her to let me join. But I didn't. I guess I was partly afraid of joining the squad as well.. Afraid I wasn't good enough. Plus, I can't dance for nuts. I think.

But still... I reconsidered it again.. after Cheer 2006. I could still make the squad for Cheer 2007. But what with some.. situations and all.. -he said to join, but I knew he didn't like it- .. I just gave the same excuse.. Mum didn't let me join.

And I regret it so much.

good luck..............

Message to all Form 3s out there...

Good Luck for PMR !! =)

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My brother received this message that has been circulated by form threes around Malaysia.. I find it SO cute. Here..

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"9.30 a.m. 5 Oktober 2007. Tarikh bersejarah yang tidak dicatat dalam buku teks, bagi semua penduduk Tingkatan 3. Bendera Penjajahan PMR akan diturunkan bermakna kami telah berjaya memperoleh kebebasan. Darurat "duduk rumah study" akan dibubarkan. Perjuangan bermati-matian Dato Seri Gary Kang akan sentiasa dihargai. Untuk sekarang GOOD LUCK dan GOD BLESS untuk Perang PMR."

Ice. Figure Skating. Passion.

Practice makes perfect.


For those who don't know, this is Michelle Kwan, a living figure skating legend.


Nobody's perfect, so why practice?


And me. The figure skater wannabe.

The quote above, "Practice makes perfect. Nobody's perfect, so why practice?" is from Bryan Voo. Hope you don't mind me using it, Bryan. =P

Figure skating rocks. I wouldn't say I'm good at it. In fact I'd probably say it's the opposite of that. But when I'm out there on the ice.. Who cares what other people think of me? It feels so good to be on ice, to skate fast and feel the cool air..

No one else matters.

Training for a competition IS hard, and very tiring for the most part. All those practices at 5 a.m., all the shouting from my coach, all the falls, the frustration of being blocked while making futile attempts to jump.. But so worth it. When the time comes.. the judges in a corner, curious people watching, friends and family cheering.. I'm alone on the ice. And I love being there. I may not be good at it, but hey, I'm passionate about it, and I like performing. Being there, having gotten to that level, it makes me feel so happy. Passion for the ice. That is SO important. And people can sense it. Whether you're happy to be there, or whether you're nervous like hell.

But I don't care what people think. I don't care if I fall. Okay, fine, I do care if I fall. But I'm just going out there to do my best. To give my best. And I only have two and a half minutes to do it. So I'm going to make it worth all the hard work and effort and practice. And in the end, all that matters is that I had fun. Even if I get last placing, I still had fun practicing and being on the ice.

I love the ice. =)

Of three flying pigs and a dancing peacock. =) *just excuse me, i'm in a good mood*

Wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee !!

Trials are OVER !

Shucks.

It doesn’t sound as good as it should.

Because trials ended yesterday.

And I’m posting this today.

Mum’s fault. She was being a killjoy. She refused to let me use the computer. Instead, I got to go for a two and a half hour chemistry tuition.

And watch TV.

But maybe staying up till 2 a.m. to watch cartoons isn’t the best idea I’ve had recently, considering I had to wake up in four hours.

Whaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaat?

I had to do SOMETHING to mark the end of trial examinations. Anyway, it wasn’t all cartoons. I watched Parental Control (the guy chose his own girl in the end, but she’s pretty whinny and is REALLY rude to his parents), Lady and the Tramp (Scamp’s Return, actually.. Scamp and Angel are soooooooo adorable!!), wanna come in? (quote the guy who didn’t win – “I learnt how to spell ice-cold today, it’s R-E-G-I-N-A.” XD ), half of Pride and Prejudice (AGAIN. Just love that show), quarter of the Wild Thornberrys (pretty idiotic), Jake Long the American Dragon (he and Rose are so super sweet!!), bit of MTV music video awards (Beyonce’s dress was downright UGH.), Lizzie Mcguire and That’s So Raven.

Oh come on. Stop laughing at me! Watching cartoons all night isn’t THAT bad.

Or childish.

Dratz, who am I kidding.

There. Go on. Laugh.





p.s- I'm better off missing him than you.. but I guess I have to stick to just being grateful.. *tough luck huh. Some people are just so lucky and they just take it for granted.* I suppose everything happens for a reason.

Gone crazieeeeeee =)

Hmmm. It's been a pretty fun week. Apart from the fact that there were exams going on, I mean. I had some fun on Wednesday. We were having Chinese and Modern Mathematics papers on that day. I don't take Chinese, you see (message to Guo Yaw : I still can't believe you didn't know I don't take Chinese. We were in the same class in form 3. How could you?? *sniff*), so some people, okay, a lot of people go around giving me the evil eye for the day. So just for fun, the day before (Tuesday), Carmen and I decided to give these people "peace offerings" in the form of Hershey's Kisses chocolate. So when I reached school on Wednesday morning, I was going around asking people, "You still love me right, even though I don't take Chinese?" and basically making them say that they love me before giving them the "peace offerings". Whaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaat? I was having fun. *pouts* =D 'cept a few people like Jia Ming and Chen Han refused to say they love me. Hmph. And I STILL gave them chocolate. See what a kind generous soul I am? -hey, quit all that coughing and spluttering!!!- XD But anyway, it's okay, they've got good *ahem* friends (emphasis on the sarcasticness of the word friends - my apologies to cas and sarah =P ) so I can't blame them. Much. *grins*

Anyway, it's three more days to the end of trials. I need an aggregate of 24 or less for either 6 of these 7 subjects to qualify for a place in Trinity College.

:Chemistry:

:Physics:

:Biology:

:Additional Mathematics:

:Modern Mathematics:

:English:

:English for Science and Technology:

I'm never going to get it. Sigh.



I just heard this song recently.. It's nice.

Eternity by Robbie Williams.

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Close your eyes so you dont feel them

They dont need to see you cry

I cant promise I will heal you

But if you want to I will try..

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I sing the summer serenade

The past is done, we've been betrayed, its true.

Someone said the truth will out

I believe without a doubt, in you..

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You were there for summer dreamin'

And you gave me what I need

And I hope you'll find your freedom

For eternity, for eternity..

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Yesterday when you were walking

You talked about your Mom and Dad

What they did that made you happy

What they did that made you sad..

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We sat and watched the sun go down

Picked a star before we lost the moon

Youth is wasted on the young

Before you know its come and gone too soon..

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You were there for summer dreaming

And you gave me what I need.

And I hope you'll find your freedom

For eternity, for eternity..

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I sing the summer serenade

The past is done, we've been betrayed, its true.

Youth is wasted on the young

Before you know its come and gone, too soon..

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You were there for summer dreamin'

And you are a friend indeed.

And I hope you'll find your freedom

For eternity..

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You were there for summer dreamin'

And you are a friend indeed

And I know you'll find your freedom

Eventually.. for eternity.. for eternity...

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-..this song is for you..-

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Oh, one more song. I know it's a bit overused. But I like it. =)
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You Raise Me Up by Josh Groban

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When I am down and, oh my soul so weary

When troubles come and my heart burdened be

Then, I am still and wait here in the silence

Until you come and sit awhile with me.

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You raise me up, so I can stand on mountains

You raise me up, to walk on stormy seas

I am strong when I am on your shoulders

You raise me up, to more than I can be.

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You raise me up, so I can stand on mountains

You raise me up, to walk on stormy seas

I am strong when I am on your shoulders

You raise me up, to more than I can be.

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There is no life - no life without its hunger

Each restless heart beats so imperfectly

But when you come and I am filled with wonder

Sometimes I think, I glimpse eternity.

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You raise me up, so I can stand on mountains

You raise me up, to walk on stormy seas

I am strong when I am on your shoulders

You raise me up, to more than I can be.

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You raise me up, so I can stand on mountains

You raise me up, to walk on stormy seas

I am strong when I am on your shoulders

You raise me up, to more than I can be..

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-..thanks for everything you've done..-

HAH. Padan muka. Who's regretting it NOW?? Ahahaha.. No regrets on my part, man, no regrets. Just look at who's laughing now !! *self satisfied smirk*
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-Love is not being willing to die for a loved one. Love is being willing to live for a loved one and being able to bring out the best in him/her. Love is learning to love yourself first, and loving the person your loved one brings out in you.-
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~You'll never know how much those few minutes mean to me~

bored. XP

RULES:

1. Put Your itunes, windows media player etc on Shuffle

2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.

3. YOU MUST WRITE THAT SONG NAME DOWN NO MATTER HOW SILLY IT SOUNDS

4. Put any comments in brackets after the song name



If someone says "is this okay?" you say,

Cry - Mandy Moore

(ok that's just wrong XD )



How would you describe yourself?

Eternal Flame- Michael Learns To Rock (MLTR)

(errrr.....)



What do you like in a guy/girl?

Come Clean - Hilary Duff

(hmmm. I wouldn't mind.)



How do you feel today?

You're Beautiful - James Blunt

(haha.)



What is your life's purpose?

Operator, The Line Is Dead - Jason Lo

(ok, that's just weird)



What is your motto?

Angel of Music - Phantom of the Opera

(LOL)



What do your friends think of you?

I'm your angel - Celine Dion & R. Kelly

(heheh.)



What do you think of your parents?

I say a little prayer for you - Aretha Franklin

(erm......)



What do you think about very often?

Wait A Minute - Pussy Cat Dolls

(wait........do I?? =P )



what is 2 + 2?

Slipped Away - Avril Lavinge

(what kind of question is this??)



What do you think of your best friend?

Never had a dream com true - S Club 7

(haha... nope.)



What do you think of the person you like?

Itu Kamu - Estranged

(never thought of it. ". )



What is your life story?

Hips Don't Lie - Shakira

(HAHA)



What do you want to be when you grow up?

My Heart Will Go On - Celine Dion

(eh.. not really. >< )



What do you think of when you see the person you like?

Sundown - Gordon Lightfoot

(don't look at me, my brother put that song in, not me)


What will u dance to at your wedding?

I'm Yours - Jason Mraz

(Hah. Not bad. But I'd rather not this song.)



What will they play at your funeral?

Lips of an Angel - Hinder

(oh god, no way man)



What is your hobby/interest?

Jailhouse Rock - The Blues Brothers

(ugh. Another of Gary's songs)



What is your biggest fear?

Paint My Love - Michael Learns to Rock

(???????)


What is your biggest secret?

Get'cha Head In The Game - High School Musical

(erm.)


What do you think of your friends?

I'll Really Miss You - S Club 7

(yeah! I'll miss you guys after form 5.. =P )